As a general rule, I don’t mind crying- I think it’s good for the soul – but crying with a head cold is the worst.
We arrived back in Canada last week, and have been working to organize ourselves and get over jet lag. Tomorrow morning we are leaving for our cross Canada tour. Over the last 10 months, our stuff has become incredibly disorganized, with bits of this here, bits of that there, and we are trying to do a little bit of consolidation and organization.
This morning I packed away the things we decided to keep – a few toys and books for memories sake, some cloth diapers and baby carriers in case we decide to attempt parenting again. Sorting through all the stuff at various times in various places and deciding what to keep has been much easier than I expected, but putting the things away in a plastic tub this morning undid me.
Over the next two months, we are going to spend time with some of the most amazing people in the world. Our main focus is going to be spending time with people who were present when Beatrix died, with the hope of giving and receiving comfort and encouragement. We will be starting in the east, at Truro, NS, and driving back, staying at different YWAM locations along the way (although certainly not all of them).
I’ve had lots of different pictures and metaphors along our journey. A week or two ago I was struck by a line in a song that always makes me weep (its called “You’re Gonna Be OK”). The line is “just follow the light in the darkness.” I think it accurately reflects where we are at, at the moment. We don’t know many specifics about where our lives are going, or what we might do. We are surrounded by darkness. Each day we struggle to keep hoping, and keep feeling our way along to that light in the distance.
This trip is the next few steps on our way to that light, to a new place of hope and of vision. We’ll try to keep you updated from the road.