Hard Days

Mother’s Day just passed.  We were with friends, and it was also their anniversary – we celebrated both important things together.  (And since Mother’s Day has never been a huge deal to me, it wasn’t this time, either.)  (I mean, Mike & I cooked supper with the kids, including a shopping trip.  Our strategy was divide and conquer: Mike looked around with the 2 girls, while I kept the baby in the stroller and actually got the food.  The baby fell asleep in the stroller as we were walking around the store, and so everyone was making such sweet faces at the two of us, and wishing me Happy Mother’s Day.  It felt a little like I should have been feeling sad, but I was just enjoying the whole experience.)

Today marks 9 months since Beatrix died.  It is also the 40th birthday of a dear friend…  and her nephew Jonathan was born today, 2 years ago.  Jonathan’s parents, Amiss & Marieth, got to spend just a few days with him before he died.

So I’m crying this morning.  Mourning our lost babies.

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There are more hard days coming – Beatrix’s birthday in July, and then the day marking one year since her death a few weeks later.  (I’m not sure what to call it – “anniversary” should be celebratory).

For me, the emotional work is usually done ahead of time, as I pray and ponder the implications of each day passing, remember what has gone before, and try to decide what to do.  As of now, I don’t know what we will do for those days; how we will spend them.  But I know this: they will come, and they will pass.  And I know this: if we face them with as much courage as we can muster, we will receive comfort, and the days that follow will be easier because we’re not deflecting the pain.

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2 thoughts on “Hard Days

  1. You have an amazing attitude and honesty about all the hurt to come and all that has passed. I thank our ABBA Father that He gives you guys what you need when you need it. Blessings and prayers dear friend! 🙏🏻❤️

  2. You guys are so awesome! I am glad that your Mother’s Day was enjoyable. I missed my Mom so bad on that day. Funny her Birthday was on May 4 but did not have a rough time that day but Mother’s Day I cried the whole morning. Then Aaron called to wish me a Happy Mother’s Day around noon & I realized I have much to be grateful for. The rest of the day was good! So great to hear from you, take care. Love & hugs!

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