I made you a playlist.
I’ve spent so much time just sitting playing a silly game (yes, it’s Candy Crush), and listening to music. The music has been working its way around my soul. It has helped me to grieve and has encouraged me – there are many mornings where I can be found with the phone in my hand and tears in my eyes. (But not always sadness, often that some lyric has spoken right to the place in my heart that needed encouragement that day.)
Some of the songs I’ve talked about on here before. Some of them are songs that speak about faith, some are not. I tried to pick lyric videos where possible – but I’ve just been listening to the songs. (Youtube just seemed like the best way to share this with you, the videos aren’t necessarily relevant.) I think some of the songs are fairly obvious (like, say “Hope is the Anthem of my Soul”), but I wanted to make a few notes…
- I’m listening again to much of the same music I was listening to shortly after Beatrix’s death… I think it is the renewal of grief as we return to our home – thus the songs by Jars of Clay and Jon Foreman/Switchfoot.
- The song, “So Will I,” has been an anthem for me for the last few months. It has been a reminder, an encouragement, and a declaration.
- “All Time Low” makes me laugh – it is a little bit crass and has some language in it – but I identify so much with the line, “I’ve been trying to fix my pride but that sh*t’s broken.” Its a funny way of putting it, but it is very true.
- And, “The House of God, Forever.” I’m sure most of you will recognize some of the lyrics. The line, “even though I walk through the valley of death and dying… you are with me, you’re always with me,” makes me tear up every time, because it has been my road the last few months.
So have a listen. For those of you wondering how we are – this is a good representation. I also know some of you are going through your own heartsickness and griefs – I hope this can speak to you as it has spoken to me.